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Wednesday, April 30, 2003
aN uNeXpEctEd cA|| from sOmeOne whom you've not met for 6-7 yEars .. someOne who iS dEar to you bUt cAusEd yOu muCh miSeRies..... hOw wOuld yOu feel? hAppY oR sAd? wE||... supposed to bE gOne for gOod... tHe fEe|ing is terrible.. I shan't reveal muCh cOz it is pErsonal...
yAzUka.. aFter 3 yEars oF bEing wIth hIm.. finally showed out his weaknEss... hE never sHed a tear in fRont of me bEfore.. and this time he did... hE is aLways so strong... so sTrong thAt I thoUght he will never cry in hIS liFe.. but he did eventually.. hE sEeMed so small and fRagile and I can't really do muCh fOr him except staying by hIs sidE.. dUn bE miStakEn.. noT becOz of mY relaTionshIp with him.. but somEthIng else...
iT reA||y hUrts me seeing him like this.. hOw I wIsh I am Right there wIf hIm nOw.. giving hIm comFort and lOve which he needs sO mUch... I aM nOt rEaDy to lEave hIm now.. cOz.. I still love him.... hE nEeDs me nOw tOo.. I can't leAve him bEcoz of mY oWn sakE of hApPineSs.. tHaT's selFish... I wAnt to bE there fOr hIm now.. rea||y...
I lOve yOu yAzUka.. dOn'T wOrRy.. I'll bE tHeRe fOr you... plEasE hAng oN ...
if i ain't got you|5:05 PM|

Monday, April 28, 2003
Hel|o... long day today.. hMmM... went for the eCons reVisioN lEcture today.. noThIng muCh... vErY tiRed... Coz yEsterday weNt for mEliSs's biRyjday party.. plAyed truTh or dAre in the end.. alot of funNy things happened..
aFter SchOo| today.. I accompanied zHi Qiang to jUncTion 8 to enquire about some chalet stuff.. but unfortunately.. they dOn't have that kinda service anymore.. he sAw how dOen I looked and he suggested going to arcade.. haha IT waS fUn!! It did help me to forget mY sOrRows.. ThAnks zHi qIang :)..
jUZ fInIshed my DCN revision.. tough.. especially the last few chapters.. bEcoz of the sArS.. our lecturers didn't teach us tHe lasT chApter.. sO understanding that last cHapter abit blUr... I think mUz reVise again.. hAi~ sO siAnz.. tomorrow meeting yM sEconDary scHoo| buDdies.. yEah.. eat loH... muZ giVe mySe|f a break Wad right? Hehehe.. I have a feeling that I will not do well this semester cOz I really slack. I do hope that I will feel panic when examinations are getting near and nearer...
TomoRRow start eCons.. *sIanz.. really hope there aren't such things called eXams... cOz is like most are pure memorizing.. then after eXams.. most of the knOwlege will return to teacher.. so wAds the use? hAiz.. Alright.. gtg now.. byE byE!
if i ain't got you|10:49 PM|

IF I LET YOU GO
Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find
The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know
if I let you go?
Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you (no one like you)
You speak to my heart (speak to my heart)
It's such a shame we're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? (oh yeah)
How will I know
if I let you go ?
If I let you go ooooh baby
Ooooooooohhhhh
Once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
Ooooooooohhhhh
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know
if I let you go?
But if I let you go I will never know
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know
if I let you go ?
if i ain't got you|12:42 AM|

Friday, April 25, 2003
eXaMs are approaching eh? so PrEpaRed? I am rusHing.. hahah... thInk can rUsh iN time.. anyway.. how are you guys.. throughout this period.. many things had happen... not for me.. but for some of my friendS.. I am so tired now.. don"t know what to write.. this might be my last b|og before eXams.. UNLESS I am very stressed up and stop for a while to blog to tell you my sorrows (*hEhe*) we||, bloGGing is about telling pEoPle your hApPiness and sorrows right? wHy not happiness.. coz there's nothing to be happy about..
In lIfe, you will experience more saddness than happIness.. do ya agree?.. so if you ever want to find your love.. make sure is someone who can share troubles with you... aLrIght? hMmm... planning to work after the eXams.. but now the sArS thingie... hAi~ shiTtY.. so late now.. have to wake up at 8 the next morning.. I have to sleep soon...
Actually after today, I've realised something about myself.. I find it so hurtful when you know you are going to lose a deAr fRiend or rather youR dEar fRiend sudden;y so cold towards you.. I guESs I really vAlue fRiendShip alot.. so I really hope I won't lose any gOod friEnds in the near fuTure.. even in Long tErms.. I loVe yA all.. bUt somE doesn't deserve this kinda goOd treatment eh? bAd fRiends.. hUmPh... I think I am going to tOk nonsense now if I don't stop bloGGin cOz my head hUrts.. AlrighT .. niGht rEaders... oH yAh... hApPy bIrthDay to yA, yAo cOng (mY naNny).. hAhahah... mUacKz to A||!!!
# # # # # kRïStå gOnNa to tUrn iN # # # # #
if i ain't got you|1:57 AM|

Tuesday, April 22, 2003
wE||.. I realised that after I sAid out my proBlEms with yAzUka.. many people are concerned about me and my fRiendS who read my blogS even askeD me if I am alright.. tHanks mAn~ I really appreciate anyoNe who give mE advIces and conso|ed me. I lOve yA a||.. well in case you are curious about me And yAzuKa, well.. I guess the worst might be over.. hE is tReating me quite well these feW dAys.. buT i don't know if this will last long.. that's Y now.. eXamS are mOre imPortanT than ever.. I gUess I sTi|| do lOve yAzUka.. aNd I seem tO tolErate him better at tImes.. I dOn't know.. mAyBe there is still a possibility that we wi|| still be together in the end..
I remEmbered very clearly wHy I choSe him.. I fE|t vEry cOmfortAble with him and we can tok aNyThiNg uNder tHe sUn.. a|so.. when we meet up.. mosT of the time.. we aRe full of lAughTers.. I reAlly do enjOy beinG wiTh him.. hE iS sOmEhOw difFerent.. I don't knOw hoW to eXplain.. he has never been with a GiRl for so long.. hE sEes a fUtUre in uS.. i gUeSs he truEly lOves me but he dOn't know how to Xpress iT wE||.. dUn yOu tHinK so? rEmember that nighT when I said I needed him so much? wE||.. he did come.. aNd I was surpriSed... and from that daY onWards.. he treats me bEtTer..
(hOpe iT lasTs)
pLeAsE wiSh mE a|| the bEst.. anD hOpe things will turn out even bEtTer.. then I know.. whAt pAth to tAke.. a pAtH oF hApPinEss....
kRïStå sTi|| iN lOve
if i ain't got you|11:42 PM|

Sunday, April 20, 2003
nOw wAtChing NKF cHaRity Show... tOt that my problems are bad.. but I suddenly feel that there are many more people out there who are worst than me.. aT leasT I am leaDing a noRmal liFe.. but others.. come down with illnesses.. fatal onEs.. and one oF thEm is kIdneY faiLure... I do hope that the media can reach their target todAE.. I did dRoP a few tEars..and this happens every yEar.. tHose peoPle out there are very pitifU|.. plS donAte.. Pls call... I knoW that.. somE pEoPle will think that if tHeY help thEm.. who will help them in return.. pLs do not think of that... at lEast giVe a call... if every family gives a ca||.. you can save them.. gIve them hOpe.. gIve them lOve.. iT is moRe blesS to gIve thAn rEceive...
tOday... mY dAy was oKie.. not too bad.. except tomorrow might be my last day to live.. cOz my jAva presenTation is on tUesday.. haha... jUz hope That everything will go well.. I think I will see how things go between mE and yAzukA.... zHi qIang said.. if yAzUka go back to his old self again... Then I wi|| saY out the pRoblem.. I am sti|| hanging on... yEstErday.. yAzUka bought me 2 oUtIng bAgs.. aNd I am sHoCked and sUrPrised.. he even said that spending money on me..is worth it and this makes him haPpy.. sO mY fEe|inGs are cOnfUsed now... hE cAn tReAt mE verY wE||.. and treat me colDly at times too.. sO iT is hArd to mAke a dEciSion.. sOmetimeS I find this saying so true... Y do peoPle fall In loVe wHen tHey are bReaking up? hA.. I dOn't kNow too.. lOve is mAgic.. brEaking uP is pAiNful... I wIsh thoSe pEople oUt there.. tReaSure uR loVe oNes.. cOz oNce loVe is gOne.. iT can nEver rEtUrn. eVeRy lOve yoU gIve... is a bLeSsIng.. and iT mEans gIviNg lIght to them.. tHank you everyone.. for listening to my "nAgGing".. I lOve yoU a||.. hAng iN there pAtIents.. eVeryOne...
+++++ kRïStå +++++
if i ain't got you|10:08 PM|

Saturday, April 19, 2003
yEah yEah... not feeling well in hEart today... for each passing day.. it seems drier and drier... nOthIng to |ook Forward to.. I gUess I am ait problematic.. yAzUka and I might be catching a movie laTer... hE kNows I am stressed out.. but he didn't know the real reason... I told him it is about studies.. which is partially true.. rEally... I spent the whole day checking for jAVa codes... almost gOt it right.. but there are somE StUpid errors... I am so Stress up to a staGe that I duN feel like doing any stuff. I gUess I will only revise mY eXams after mY jAvA pRoJect presentation... I tHink ThAt's the only time I can concentrate.. mAyBe yAzUka and I do have another chance to be together.. wAd dO yOu A|| think? sOmetimEs I juz hope he could appreciate me.. that's all I am asking for.. is that so hard?
wAd afRaid me most is that I might fall in loVe or rAther have a crush for someone else.. I was thinking... mayBe I am too cOnfUsed with my own feelings and tOt that I liked someone else.. tHat sUcks... bUt cOme to think again.. wHo can I like? hahaha... maYbe I dun like or love anyone now.. except mySelf and mY familY. I doN't know... hahah.. I guEsS I am cRazY.. I aM kU kU fAce's sIster.. who is kU kU fAce? bEnjAmIn!!! hAhahaha.. hE so kU kU... doN't know whY.. but a good lOoking kU kU I should say... hhaha... alright... gOOd lucK kU kU face.. goOd lUck sHanNen.. goOd lUck evryOne.. muZ |iVe on...
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|oNg |iVe kRïStå !!!
if i ain't got you|2:29 PM|

Friday, April 18, 2003
hErE... I will first and foremost... giVe bLeSsIngs to mY bUdDy, sHaNNen.. pEoPle coMe and gO.. so wIsH you luCk iN fUtUrE... I went out with my poly friends today.. sHaNnen, zHi qIang, wEi lOng and bEnjAmIn.. hAha.. I went to take neo print with everyone except bEnjAmIn.. coZ take with him before already wAd... yAh Lor... hMmm... so sIanz.. although the sArS keep spreading like sIao... but there is still alot of people in the streets.. hAha.. and saw a few people wearing the mAsK.. yA lOr.. hAi~ we went to buY mElisSa's and dorEEn's birthday presents.. thEn went to sTarbUcks and tok tok lorz... tOk alot of cRap..
tOdAe noT muCh oF appetite.. nOt that I really want to "cUt fAts".. but I juSt dUn haVe the appetite.. yA lOr... nO oNe to lOve mahZ... hahahah.. jUst jOkIng.. feeling stressed about studies and current relationship with yAzUka.. dUnNo how to settle.. bUt only maybe after eXams lor... I jUz feel sO sIck... nUmbEd... hAiyAh.. actually had a great fuN today... wHen dUn mention about studies lArZ... hEhE.. vEry tIrEd.. gtg now... cYa.. lOve yA EvEryoNe...
if i ain't got you|10:20 PM|

Thursday, April 17, 2003
sO mUch tiMe hAd pAsSed... but I've not came out of my senses... wAnTeD to bUrSt oUt mY fEe|ings for a feW tImes.. but I didn't want to embarass mySelF iN fRonT oF thE pUblic... nAh.. dUn wAnNa tO tOk abOut it anymore.. I jUz wAnt to livE mY |ife to the fullest. It is hard to see who is sincere and who is not, don't you think so? yOur beSt fRiEnd might bE yOur eNemy? aNd yOur eNemY mIghT be yOur bEsT fRiend? I gUeSs your bEst fRiend is yourself... cOz yOu oN|y can trust yourself... but the wOrSt enemY cAn bE yOuRsE|f too when everything seems to go wrong... I am 18.. and beginning to see the harsh reality of life.. tHe bUbB|es are popping like maD... bUt cAn I do aNyThIng? wHaT's there to do in life? sTuDy--> wOrK--> eArN and feeD for yOuRself. iSn't that boring? wAd cAn YoU rea||y do in life? mAke a nAme for uRsE|f? sTuDy hArD tO gEt gOoD pAy? dUnNoe.. sometimes I feel like drifting off to sleep.. cOz I feel that sleep is when you enter a dReaMlAnd.. and nO worRies.. HaHa.. I aM tOkIng rUbBish>...... sHhHHh...
iDiOtz.. mY jAvA pRojEct presentation is coming but I've yet to complete my part... iT is very difficult.. believe me... I have to go and research nEw sTuFf which I didn't learn befOre.... aRgH... todaY I juZ had my last tEsT.. fRenCh... didn't care much about grades anymore.. I gUess gRades are not as important as |ife....
kRïStå wAnTs tO bE In a dReaMlAnd...
if i ain't got you|7:37 PM|

Wednesday, April 16, 2003
OnE dAy had pAsSed.. aNd I fE|t so terrible.. had a test tomorrow but I don't have the mood to study at all. I did study lahz.. but only a little.. I've realised that I still love him very much... mAyBe I jUz couLdn't let go? oR I nEeD more Time to rEcoVer.. I have the uRgE to save the messages he sent to me today.... wHat dOes tHat ImPly? I am really in deep sHit... my eXams are coming and now this? I dUnNoe... I am so confused... can anyone tell me whAt tO do? I kNow I should solve these kindA pRob|ems for mYself.. but I am facing additional streSs in sChoo|.
I've juS called him... I really miss him so much... my heart really aches when I talk to him.. how I wish nothing had happen between us... or rather I've never met him at all... wAd should I do? sHouLd I give our realtionship another one last chance? I am really veXed.. really stressed up.. tense up.. watEvEr... I hate this feeling... I want to cRy out.. I really want to... I hope that he will be here with me.. now... really... sO hArD..
if i ain't got you|10:59 PM|

sInGle or nOt sIngLe? I don't know myself too.. yAzUka wanted to cool down.. but is it a break up? I don't know.. hE dUn eveN think it is good to meet this fRiDay.. I dOn't know if we could still go on.. wE still have feelings for each other.. but what's the use.. haha.. when we dOn't even cLick? sHaNnEn.. broke up with bRaNdoN.. same day as me.. bUt it is really coincidence! nOw I will give him time to think.. then maybe he will realise that I am not the one he is looking for.. hE nEeDs someone who caN give him lotsa frEeDom.. somemore.. cAnNot boTher him when he is sTrEsSed.. cAnNot cRy In fRonT of him.. cOz he will feel irritated.. yAPz... I dOn't think I can be the oNe.. cAn't... hAha.. I dUnOe...
yAzUkA: pLeAse take care oF youRsElf when I aM nOt ArOunD.. I KnoW YoU fEe| sTrEsSed bUt this is A pArT aNd pArcEl of life.. fAce iT.. aNd dOn't bEcOz oF sTrEss tHen yOu tAkE iT oN oThErs wHo cArE fOr You. pLeAse tHiNk oF tHe pEoPle aRoUnD you... especially your mOthEr.. aLtHoUgh she mIght bE unreasonable at times.. bUt sHe loVeS yOu & I gUeSs no OnE lOves U mOrE than hEr. sO dUn mAkE hEr WoRrY.... yOu wI|| aLwAys be In mY mInd.. mEmoRiEs wi|| not bE eRaSeD unLeSs I aM dEaD. yOuR nAmE iS aLrEadY eNgRavEd iN mY hEaRt and fOrEvEr iT wIll Be pArT oF mE....
kRïStå fa||en oUt oF lOve
if i ain't got you|2:36 AM|

Tuesday, April 15, 2003
iT wAs sUcH a |ong dAy toDae... tIrIng... and my mood waS extRemEly doWn.. I duN think it is becOz of the mood swing... more likely that something had happen to me which I was unaware of... until now... I shEd a tEar while I jUz stared into the space... I tOt of tHe eveNts had happen and whAt will happeN in the future.. nO oNe wi|| understand cOz I duN even uNderStand mYsElf. I hAd a mixture of feelings.. I fElt so confused.. iT is hard to lOve him.. but it is harder to leave him.. that's Y I stayed on... oF cOz I felt happy when I am with him.. but very stressful too.. CoZ I am unsure where I stand in his heart. I am so veXed nOw.. tRied to tell him the problems.. but seems like they cannot be solved. mAybe now I should concentrate on my exams uh?
fine........
if i ain't got you|10:51 PM|

I gUess I am getting sick... hope I will be well by tomorrow... yA know waD hapPen today? shAnNen and I went to play basketball with the guYs... hAha... I don't know how to play lorz... hEhe.. ShAnnEn stoped earlier than me coZ she hAd bliSters.. bIg onE.. Don't know how is it now.. hUmpH... take cAre sHanNen~ tHen nothing much happeN today.. Oh yah.. zHiqiAng, bEnjAmIn, ShAnNen & I play a game... something like if you are the loser.. you are being asked a question.. bUt nO pErsOna| quesTions!!! yEah.. foUnd out a few things eh... vEry FunNy.. and eMbArAsSing too.. hAha.. cAnNot saY muCh... lAter sOmeoNe is gonNa ki|| mOi... yAh lOr... ShHhh...
eXaMs ArE cOmIng... sIanz... sIanzzz.... sTrEss.. sTrEss~~~ oNe moRe mOnTh to go and it will be all over... and gonNa be sEniors... hAha yeAr 2!! hMm... nOw dEar Dear sLping.. lAter have to call him up.. coz have to send him some Mp3s...
I wIsh to cA|| him dEar... a|ways.. if not as long as I can.... I lOve You...
#kRïStå gOnNa bE sIcK sOoN#
if i ain't got you|12:18 AM|

Sunday, April 13, 2003
hE||o dudEs~ heY did you watch the NKF Charity show today? hMm... watched abit ony.. cOz every year almost the same and can't bear to see those pitiful pPl on the clips... I always cry whenever I see that.. although I didn't watch the programme much.. but I did donate... I always donate for NKF patients.. coZ I really find them pitiful.. lIfe is so unfair.. some small little children got it.. but they haven' enjoy life yet... I feel that everyone in life have to enjoy at least once.. wE||.. sometimes it might be a blessing in disguise.. coZ I find that those people has this kinda sickness... the family bond is stronger... P|ease cA|| more!!! pLease donate.....
wE||... I didn't really do much todaY... except doing my homework.... tOdae tot of going overseas to study.. I mean now... immediately... bUt thinking of the SARS and WAR.. I "biengz"... siAnz lor.. tomorrow will be another tiring week....
oh yAh... by the way.. my menses arrived~~~ yeah.. no more mood swings.. and no more bloated stomach.. yEah.. feeling better.. I also feel that I am crazy today... hAhahA...
if i ain't got you|11:50 PM|

DuH.... sO siAnz... late in the night... so lonely... yAzUka is fishing with his friends... I don't know why is it so difficult to make time for me... but not his friends... bEeN thinking over and ovEr again.. did I love the wrong person... I do love him very much... but does he? wi|| he be upset when I leave him... HaH! mAybe he only needs to take a while to get over.. but definitely not for me... where is he when I need him the most? yAzUka.. I hate this kinda life... fighting for you... fRom your friends?! That's ridicuous.... I think I really should ignore him... for a while at least.. I don't know.. Pls tell me waD to do...
I went to take my 3rd jAb toda.. hahah... they switched off the air con and the doctor put a mask.. felt so funny... SARS (hate it).. i don't know what to say now... I blog.. cause I've nothing to do... Hmmm.. think I better go now.. don't know what to type in...
if i ain't got you|12:10 AM|

Friday, April 11, 2003
hE||o.... well... feeling very tired and sleepy now... I don't know why mY cOmpUtEr can work.. but it juZ happened... and maybe it is going to shut off any moment.. I dUnNo.. yEstErday I toOk my fRenCh tEst.. did quite okie.. not too bad... aNd I've received my sTaTistIc results todaE too... not too bAd too... I think now I've juz gotta think about my upcoming EXAMS!!! yEah.. Something DraMatic happened to me... haha... mDm tAy ( mY cOurSe cOordinaTer)... she called me up today.. and told me that I was selected for some kinda competition... but not exactly in it yet... heard that there will be training... and the rEa| competition ( nAtIonA| sKills cOmpEtiTion) will start from neXt year... I sUpPose.. wE||... boTh hApPy and sAd at the same time... hApPy cOz I am selected... THAT'S THE ONLY REASON! wHy nOt happy? wE||.. is like getting stressed again.. having people high expectations of you and the fear of disappointing them... yEah.. you muZ bE thinking I am paranoid.. bUt I am really tired of these kinda things... cOz I really HATE to disappoint pEoPle.. yAh lOr.. and heard that for that competition... since after NYP joined.. they have won prizes every NCS... oh gOsh... aDdtional pressure.. sO they have to choose carefully... but I am not in it yet... jUz a participator.... fUrThermOre.. mY dRiVing lessons... may have to push back... is like my whole jUne hoLidays Plans are gone... sHitz.... sUcks ah? tHey are gOnNa to train uS duRing the jUne hOlidays... hEy fOrgot to tell you... iT is A IT compeition... mY IT sucks you see.... so I have really no idea why they choose me???????!!! Ok stop my nagging now...
after scHoo| today.. mY fRiEnds and I finished doing the statistics quiz and went to oRchArd... wEnt to fAr eAst level one.. saw a dress I rea||y like.. but might not buy it anyway.. cOz I dun think it fits me..sHaNnEn, dOrEEn and mE|issa... keep on trying clothes.. haha.. great fun.. and in the end.. we went into GidArNo (dUnNo spelt correctly) cHi|dren's department.. dUn ask me why... sHaNnEn bought cLoThes from there!! kInda cute...
hAha.. tomorrow taking my HB 3rd jAb... in yIshun... gotta wake up earlier... cannot sleep till afternoon.. hHAHAH (pIgZ)
kRïStå vEry sTrEsSed!!!
if i ain't got you|10:27 PM|

Thursday, April 10, 2003
gOoD aFternOoN~ nO moRe pRojEcts!!! hEhE... coz they are done... pHew... in an hour time.. I am gonna to have my fRenCh tEst.. hOpe to score well.. cOz I think my first test not really very good lor.. hope I can still maintain an A grade... aFter today...after the test I mean.. I could relax for a while... yEah~ nOw beNjAmIn is beside me... playing "Championship Manager 4"... sIck rite... DuNno what's so fun about that.. I only feel that the small humans running about are cute.. HehE... suppose to study frEnCh ah... but I didn't lor... haha lAzY lahz... too tired.... fInA||y I got to see my dEaR later.. having dinner only lor... these few days he is having a bad mood.. I hope I could cheer him up you see... oH yah... I am in my scHoo|'s computer lab now... my school changed quite alot....... nO more lEctUres, computer labs and library are closed early, therefore my grouP mates and I are going to have a hard time to complete the jAvA pRojEct... hEy yah know what.. I got back my jaVa test result.. I got an A.. although it is only 10%.. but I feel happy enough cOz my java has always been very bad lorz... hAha.. maybe this is luck...
tests are over, projEcts are over... but exams are NOT!!! gosh.. have to buck up... stuDy StudY stuDy... bLahz... now somemore the SARS thingie... so sickening... it is still not over yet lorz... hope it will be over soon... ShaNnEn is blogging too... haha.. now you can see how sian we are..okie... now left 45 minutes to my test.. cHriST..pLease wish me luck again okie? mIght as well wish me lots of luck so that I could use them for my eXams.. hehee... kk lar... gtg now
GoOdbyE duDes...
A message to my readers:
Thos who have been faithfully reading my blogs.. I really appreciate it.... tHanks...hEhEhe....
A message to yAzUka:
I know you are very stressed out now.. aNd you are not the only one... |et us pull through together!!!
~LuV kRïStå~
if i ain't got you|1:20 PM|

Sunday, April 06, 2003
PhEW.... didn't blog for almost 4 dAys.. we||.. I was busy with my projects and stuff.. nOw... can relax a bit... I might be going to library later to search some information for mY eCons Poject.. yAzUka coming with me! tHen we might have lunch together. hMmm... well.. remmerbered I had two tests.. we|| they went on quite well... qUite statisfied.... tOmOrrow is the presentation of my buSinEss mAnAgement and tUeSdaY is my eConS presentation... oN fRidAy night... bEnjAmIn and sHaNnEn stayed over at my plcae juz to do eConS pRojEct... and it sucks k... wE sPeNt the whole night analyzing... cOz the internet resources didn't really tell us the economy crisis in thAiland from 1996-1999... sIck... a|| in brief details...
wE||.. my sis and another week of holiDaY!!! her sChOo| reopen only on 16 aPril... niCe for tHem eh? aNyWay... I dUn ThInk I will ever see this phrase " NYP will close for XX days" wE||, never... coz we are too healthy!!! hAhA... mY dad going back to cHinA again... oh gosh.. bEtTeR tAke caRe~ SARS really changed our life.... I hope that this will never happen again... as long as I live...
gOoD dAy EvErYone!!!
if i ain't got you|1:57 PM|

Wednesday, April 02, 2003
sUch a coLd and lOnely nIght... cAn't help bUt fee|ing a bit anxious at the same time. I have having 2 tEsTs tomorrow... dId study for them, but not confident enough. nOw, munChIng away my own tUna sAnDwIch.. wE||... wHen I was studying for my test juz now.. I tot of the past few months... wAd aCtuA||y happenEd... I still do treat my studies seriously.. buT tHe sCoRes keep going down.. and I don't know why... tHen I suDdEnly tot of frEnCh.. hMmm... I thought I would be happy studying fRenCh, but I actua||y dread of going to french classes now... Y? bEcoz of the tEacHer... yEah.. I don't like teachers who treat sTuDenTs unfAirly... bias... tHis is the fIrSt time I've come across sUch tEacHer fRom NYp... He is bias.. obviously.. not much towards me.. but to other students... dOn't feel like explaining why... anD I find tHat he is making it too obvious. I thinK evEn a blind man could sense it.. hA~ hOw to score we|| if your teacher don't like u? nOt oNly I feel that way.. my classmates do feel that way too.. I jUz dun feel like blogging these few days because of the upcoming projects and tests... fEe|ing down... aNd The sARS thingie.. wE||.. it changes everything... our lives... to be continued....
if i ain't got you|11:34 PM|
